Eliana's Mama

A day doesn't go by when I don't hold Ellie and think bout the woman who carried her for 9 months and had to leave her.  I don't think we will ever have the true answer as to why she couldn't keep her daughter.  Many reasons, perhaps she was single and couldn't provide for her alone.  Maybe she was married and already had a child and couldn't afford to feed two.  She may have simply had a son already and according to Chinese law she couldn't have another child.  There is intense pressure to not go against the good of all, and keeping the population down in China is for the good of all.  Having more than one child is seen as self serving and is looked down upon.  These are just a few of the scenarios that could have taken place, but ultimately Eliana's mother loved her enough to give her life, to deliver her and for 5 days care for her before placing her at the gate of an elementary school before dawn, knowing that soon someone would find her.  It breaks my heart to think of the agony that must have been for her.  Not knowing what has happened to her baby, was she loved?  And here I sit, typing this with a sweet baby in my lap, sleeping soundly...unaware that she is loved so much, and that all of this was already planned ahead of her birth by a God that loves her more than any parent could.  Its all really hard to comprehend, but I think it really is evidence that God still performs miracles if we look for them.